It has been months since I have blogged and I am just worn out and tired of it all. Today is gloomy and sad. I am a mother and a daughter that is just used up and spit out. But see here is the thing...I am a Christian and I know how to rely on God and go to him in prayer. I know how to stay positive and be strong and move forward, hold it together and not just crumble into a million pieces! I want to fall down, cry and scream sometimes and tell God I am feeling abused. I want to tell him that my lessons in the Valley are so upsetting and so tiring and so painful and I want a break!!!! I want to just have some peace of mind and some down time from all the troubles. I know that is just being human but I feel guilty for feeling that way because I am a Christian and I need to get it together!!!! The smile most days is fake, but the appreciation for my life and blessing is NOT. Can you be so sad that you want to fall apart, but also know how lucky you are to be a child of God and to be free???? I feel that way all the time!!!
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